Being "On".

There have been several times in the last few days where I've felt the need to be "on." Social commitments, class attendance, yada yada. For many reasons, it's important for me to present myself in the best way possible, pretty much at all times. But I've found myself extremely tired of it all already, and it's barely Wednesday.

For me, being "on" means being on full alert, ready to catch anything that flies my way, prepared to ask or answer questions in class,  thinking ahead. It's not something I can avoid as a full-time student and representative of Salem as an institution. I've also come to realize that it's extremely important for me to represent this blog in a certain fashion... turns out, I get a surprising amount of questions about Keep Not Settling, and I always have to be prepared for them.

The thing is, being "on" isn't easy. There are days when I would really love to just go to class in my pajamas, sleep rather than working on homework in advance, ignore the world. There are times when I'm able to turn the social stress off, like during goofy late-night conversations with friends, or when it's a day off and I do nothing but watch Gilmore Girls in bed.

I've always been really good at handling stress and flipping it into positive energy, but lately being "on" all the time has started to become rather exhausting. Still, I'm  in the process of figuring out how to handle it all, where some compromises can be made, etc.

How do you handle being "on" ? 

Keep not settling,

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